New Year, Work and Everything Else

Been a while I didn't update my blog. New year had been buzy and so far, m managing okay! How I spent my new year? I took a flight out on the last day of the 2008 to Kota Kinabalu where my parents and my 2 youngest brothers were waiting for me there. I took a half day off that day and my brother, Andy sent me to the airport around 3PM. Luckily I checked in early and managed to get a seat nearest to the exit coz it was a full flight. It was a short flight, about 25 minutes. I only brought a totte bag with me and the stewardess asked me to place my bag on the overhead compartment. When we landed, it took me some efforts to get my bag down. I thought with my high heels I would manage to get my bag but unfortunately, the truth is, even with my 3 inch heels, I still couldn't reach my bag. Out of nowhere, a male's hand reached over and got my bag for me. Turned out, it's the guy sitting in the opposite aisle. I noticed him plng before but then me, being me, just mind my own business. I said my thanx to him and we went our separate ways.

We were staying at the Courtyard hotel in 1Borneo and the journey from the airport to the hotel is about 20-30 minutes in which we were stuck in the traffic jam. Arrived at the hotel around 7PM and soon after settled in, aimed with my comfortable slipper, all of us started to walk thru' the 1Borneo. The building is amazing but suprisingly, it's kindda quiet there. I think less people going there due to the standard and the distance. I can see more of the Bruneians than the local. But hey, m not complaining...at least that gave me some space to do window shopping and shopping...hehe!

The shops close at 10PM hence my shopping for that night is limited and I only managed to buy a pair of urs & inc's shoe which cost me.....errrmmmm...now, I don't remember the price (haha! just avoiding the truth of how much m willing to pay for a pair of shoe)! anyway, m quiet happy for my purchase! Bought some snacks then me and my brothers retired to our room. Equipped with a wireless connection in the room and with our laptop, while waiting for the new year, me and my bros went ssuurrrfffiinnnggg! Mostly, it's my bros did the surfing while me, tired for work in the morning, went under the cover with the intention to 'get a rest' but turned out, I feel asleep...haha! Talked about greeting in the new year! Haha!

Next day, dad woke us up and we had our breakfast at the hotel's lounge..cool place! After breakfast, we jln-jln around the 1Borneo but most of the shops were not opened yet so we decided to go to the city area. We went to Wisma Merdeka. Me and my bros decided to cut our hairs so we went to this saloon. My youngest bro, Muiz decided to do a simple cut and a highlight while my younger bro, Faiz decided to just cut his hair and me, ehem, I decided to rebond my hair and no cutting. And believe me, this time it took longer than before. We were there around 12PM and my bros were done within 1-2 hours while for me, I was sitting in that chair for 6-freaking-hours!! I finished rebonding my hair around 6PM, 2 hours after the shop closed! I was the only customer left behind! Hahaha! Gila eh! I was so tired, hungry and macam-macam! I didn't expect it to be that long! Fewwhhh! My last rebonding experience here in Brunei only took me 4 hours and even that, I couldn't stand it. That's why I did my hair only when I got the free time - which rarely I have nowdays! Hehe!

We had our dinner near the seaside that night and after that we went back to the 1Borneo and after shower (with my hair covered), me and my bros started to shop again! Haha! Kaki shopping! Managed to buy few more pairs of shoes/sandles and I don't even remember what else I bought...hehe! We went home the next day coz I had to get back to work the following Saturday. We went off from the hotel around 9.45AM and we only stopped to buy fuel. Mahal eh fuel di Malaysia. No wonder many Malaysians wanted to buy fuel di Brunei. Anyway, we arrived Limbang around 3PM and with heavy rain, we stopped to eat belated lunch and we que-ed up around 4PM and wow! it was a long que. Not the longest, I heard but still, 2 hours doing nothing but to sit, to eat, to joke, to read and to sleep is kindda bored! We managed to come home around 6.30PM!! So exhausted! Eventhough my dad drove all the way from KK to Brunei, I was so tired! I think my dad knew I would be tired so he didn't ask me to drive coz he is also on leave.

As soon as we came home, my dad's uncle (kira me grandpa la tu) called to tell that my grandma (my dad's mum) is sick. She complains to pain along the left arm and my grandpa told my dad to bring her to the hospital for check up. So, I had my shower and went straight to kg - my grandma is staying with my aunt. I tried to pujuk my grandma to come with me to the clinic but being an old lady, I can't compete with her stubborness! She was having 'urititis' aka beruri! Having diabetes and hypertension, she was so scared that the doctor will ward her or add more medications. So I gave up and just advised her on cutting down the sugary and the salty foods..I visited her again last Sunday and she's getting better dah, Alhamdullilah!

Work-wise, I managed to finish all the drug usages for the year 2008 and submitted it last Tuesday. At least that's out of my mind, I can now concentrate on my ordering. But starting next week, I need to stay back and do all the entry into the database....aaiiiii...work never end! Last-last, I would become workholic jua nie eh! Hmmm...

I went for hiking at Tasek last Wednesday and yesterday. This time, I didn't go alone. Last Wednesday, I went with a friend and yesterday, my friend's friend brought him to hike the Marakucing and my friend brought me along. Iski ku udah kan hike the Marakucing but unfortunatly, it was drizzling that afternoon and the 3 of us went to Tasek instead. It was fun but for an infrequent hiker like myself, it took me a great effort to finish the hike. Luckily I got a cheerleader who cheer me all the way...haha :P

Last night, it's the siblings outting. Me, my brother after me, Andy, Faiz and Muiz went out and just hang out! My other brother, Adi didn't come along coz he had to work overtime. We went out around 9.30PM and it was raining quiet heavily. We went to Qlap and our intention was to watch a movie but there is no interesting movie at the moment. We already watched Bedtime Stories, Yes Man, Twilight, IP Man, The Day The Earth Stood Still, Wild Child.....so, what movie to watch?? Batah-batah d Qlap Mall thinking, we went to the Mall. 3 of us planning to watch Histeria but Andy doesn't want to watch it. You thought that being in the army would make him tough but I think I'm wrong...hahaha! Ended up we went to McDonald, eat and chat! Came home around 12midnight!

This morning, I woke up early to send my car for servicing and while waiting, I went shopping.....again! Bini-bini tah banar! Haha! When we came back from KK, I sdaid to myself, no more shopping for this month but eventually that doesn't work for me..haha! I ended up buying another bag....berapa banyak bag la?? haha!!

Anyway, after this, banar nie, m not going for shopping no more. Done! for this month! Hehe! I will stay at home for today and will start do my ordering...hehe!

This weekend, I gotta attend my aunt's sister-in-law's wedding. And I still haven't decide for next weekend - whether to attend the Annual Pharmacy Gathering (APG) which would be held in Tutong or to attend my chinese cousin's wedding in Rizqun hotel. I already paid to attend the APG and my parents already RSVP the whole family for the wedding!! Errrkkk! Yang mana satu nie?? I can skip either one plang but the thing is, I don't know which 1 to skip...hehe! The APG this year sounds so fun - it's the 70's theme and we the community staffs already were thinking to wear the 70's outfits and some of us willing to wear wigs (haha! excluding me!) while the wedding, errrmmm, do I need to say, it's family's function. Bida jua usulnya to skip....uurgghhhh...mcmana ah?? Oh well, I think about it when the time comes...haha! Udah atu!

Cheers! Happy New Year Everyone!

Benar - Benar Bored!!!

This is the first time in a long long time I ever feel this bored! The last time I got this feeling was when I was in Singapore where one of the weekends, everyone out and about and I stayed behind and got nothing to do!

Tonight, I'm at home, alone with nothing to do. Actually, I got so many things to do but all those involved office works and since I don't want to think about office at the moment, m not gonna do anything about it. Hence here I am, doing nothing (sort of!). My parents with my 2 youngest brothers left for KK this morning and I will be going there tomorrow. Can't wait! I'm leftbehind with my other 2 brothers but then being boys, jangantah harap ada d rumah!

I went to jog/hike/walk at Tasek this afternoon after work considering that I know that I would get bored and lonely if I came home. I only did 1 round - saja kan testing my new running shoe...hehe! Finished around 5.45pm and went straight to Kiulap to pay some bills. Went to KFC Sengkurong and bought something to eat and by the time I came home, it's 7PM!
Fuuuiiii...patangnya rumah. No light anywhere. Switched on (nearly all) the lights, fed my cat, my rabbits, my turtles and them I fed myself...hehe! Had my shower and here I am...really got NOTHING to do!!!

Makan, done! Mandi, done! Kan liat DVD, malas jua rasanya. Kan read a book, malas jua! Ntah laaaa....

Anyway, new year 2009 is less than 48 hours away and same as last year (or this year), I'm not gonna have any new year's resolutions coz somehow I just couldn't stick to it! So better don't have any lah! Let just see what 2009 would bring!

Happy New Year 2009 Everyone!
May your coming years be meaningful than before!

Ringing In The New Year!!

Selamat Menyambut Awal Tahun Hijrah 1430 everyone and Happy New Year 2009!

Last Weekend

Last weekend, the family was having a mini family day by having a slide pool bouncer. It was superfun and here are some of the snapshots. I joined in playing (mana kira!) and I ended up having sunburn. Imagine playing that thing from 9am till 6pm and I changed clothes 3 times!!!

Faiz, Trisya, Atul and Muiz

My eldest bro..lagi nda sadar diri *kweng*kweng*kweng*

Faiz - giant slider

Wadi - perasaan di Sunway Lagoon

Trisya, Atul and Muiz

Trisya and Muiz

Trisya and Muiz...again!

Gaya Trisya turun slide

Gaya Atul turun slide

Gaya Atul jua

P.s. Don't bother to look for my picture coz it ain't here...haha! Sensored sikit!

The Weirdest Day

I woke up and came late to work today with no breakfast. Being late, I didn't manage to get a parking under the garage so I parked outside, blocking a colleague's car. Once I opened the office's door, the phone started to ring. It's my boss. He's attending a seminar-workshop for this 1 whole week hence he is not coming to the office. Staffing problems la early morning so had to settle before 7.45 that morning. One of my assistants needs to go to another health centre; she doesn't drive so I had to send her. By the time I came back to the office, all the parkings are full. Frustrated, I just blocked the rest of the cars! haha! First time ever I did that! Came out of my car, headed straight for the security, handed them my car's key and told them to move my car if any of the 7 cars I blocked wanted to go out.

By lunchtime, I didn't feel going out coz it rained (and I just had a shiny clean car for 1 day). I looked down to the parking lot and saw the security was moving my car and he made 1 round and guess what? There is an empty parking in the garage and he didn't park there. Instead, he blocked 2 other cars. So, I casually came down and asked about my car.

Me: Macammana my car?
The Security: Ah! Yang Ford atu kah?
Me: Awu...
TS: Sudah belalih
Me: (pura-pura nda tau) di dalam garage kah?
TS: Kita mau dalam garage kah?
Me: Baik jua..kalah ada kosong
TS: Bah, aku saja melalihkan
Me: Oh...bah, buleh jua. Thanx (and I went up and subuk lagi where he's gonna park my car)

The security made 1 round and parked in the front. It's a tight space so I just observed how he parked my car. I'm a very fussy person, to be honest. I rarely let anyone to drive my car nowdays. Because my car is considered my boyfriend tu. I take care of him very carefully; bath him, lanja him...hehe! The security managed to pass my validation as he can park my car so nicely. Then around 2PM, as I was watching the rain outside (yes! nada kerja lain), I saw my car parking was changed - from front parking to the back! I don't mind being park in the back, as long bergarage. Besides I parked at the back everyday jua. But what happened? Malar jua tukar-tukar parking. 2 of my colleagues said that the security like to drive my car, iatah rajin memindah atu..hmmm..

Lunch time, I stayed in the office to finish up my paperwork when a phone call came. I answered and the guy on the other line wanted to speak to 'Seri'. I was like 'what? ter is no Seri here' and he explained that he couldn't be sure of the name and introduced himself. Recognized him as one of my patients, so I started to talk to him (thinking that he has some queries about his medications) and turned out he called to tell me how much he likes me!! WHAT?!! I was like 'are you sure you are not mistaken?'. Considering that it's only 2 of us working in that dispensary and my colleague is a guy, so he told me of coz he's not mistaken. He started to introduced himself personally beyond the dispenser-patient relationship and asked me questions about myself. FREAKY! But no to be rude, I just entertained him. I know I shouldn't coz it would only complicate matters but I can't just hang up on him, right? I mean, I'm seeing this guy like every month. He started to ask whether I wanted to have lunch with him some day or another. ERRMMM.... Should I ask for transfer? Nah! I think he is no a threat...well, I hope so. Anyway, told him I don't mind being friend with him...

Around 2.30PM, my stock came and the usual 3 labourers datang with all the stocks. I don't know them personally apart from seeing them once a week. 2 of the guys have this big arms and one time, I asked them whether they do lifting and they said yes. One of the guys asked me whether I'm interested in going to the gym with them and I said, 'buleh jua. tapi nantila bila aku rajin' and he said, 'bah, sound-sound saja'. After they left, my colleague told me that the guys were asking for my hp no (what?) and he (my colleague) told them he doesn't know. Fewwhh...I told my colleague that if they are a gentlemen, they would ask me my no themselves, not thru' him (my colleague).

Geeezzz...what a weird day!

Me and The Gang

2 weekends ago, almost half of the ND/SCI/09 came together and gather once again for Azmin's wedding. Another one of us got married. I woke a bit late that Sunday coz the previous night I was out with my bestie to attend the closing dinner for the badminton tournament which was held in a restaurant in Kiulap. With prize presentations, karoake and eating, we got off late, slept late and woke up late. Hehe!

Considering that I'm the unofficial designated driver for the day (me and my bestie take turn to drive when we went out), I had to be ready by 10.15am. Around 10am, Era, another close friend of mine messaged saying that his hubby (also a close friend of mine) couldn't attend b'coz of work commitment and asked if I can fetch her, so I just said get ready by 11am. So, I fetched my bestie and zoomed off to Lambak and arrived ter at 11am (m sooo good with time management..haha!). Me, Dedy, Era and Hj Saipul (Era's hubby) always see each other so, we are quiet close now compared to the rest of the college mates and it's always nice to help each other out...just like old times....

The wedding was held in the ICC and we arrived there around 11.15am. We asked the family members if we can see the groom and we were led to another room, where the groom and the family gathered. Managed to take couple of pictures with the groom and while we were there, Rozme, Ebby (her hubby) and their daughter, Batrisya Nabila came. Snap another picture with them. Funny thing is that me and Rozme work together in 1 department and honestly this is the first time I saw her in a year! YES!! She is working in Tutong while I'm working in Bandar. Seldom our paths cross.

Sabrina and her small familt came together with Insyriah while Daneil came alone. Our college mates that couldn't make it - Hj Saipul (working), Hijjah (just gave birth last 12th November) and her hubby, Nasrul (who is our college mate), Miah (who is admitted to the day ward in RIPAS for glucose check) and Maidin (who is currently studying HND in UK). Apart from that, all of us were there. It's so nice to see everyone - almost everyone! Congralts Min!!!

Me and Daneil

Me and the groom, Azmin

Daneil, Era, iantie, Dedy, Rozme, Sabrina n Insyirah

Daneil, Era n iantie

Era, iantie, Azmin n Dedy

Me and the Bond.......James Bond ;)

Not a big fan of Bond movies but I do like to watch it, mainly because of the actions. I was planning to watch the earlier show at 10PM but because of TARA, which aired at 9PM, so I took the midnight show.

Daneil Craig, I still haven't make up my mind about him - whether he suits the Bond personality or not! But he dressed as nicely as the other Bonds. Hehe! And what I noticed about the latest 2 Bond movies is that Bond is driving a Ford car and having a Sony Ericsson cell. Both what I'm driving and having. Does that make me the Bond's girl? Haha! Come on! Everyone wants to become the next Bond's girl. Even I heard that Beyonce is already auditioning for the next film.

In the theatre, only 3 of us watching the movie along with a couple and by the time the movie ended, it was 2AM. And when we came out of the Qlap mall, only 4 cars on sight....fewwwhhh...dalam sejarah...haha! Came home around 2.15AM and went to sleep. Only woke up at 12noon....ish ish ish!!!!!

Me and TARA

TARA - short for The Amazing Race Asia. I'm not a big fan of real-life drama or such but when it is an adventure, it's an exception. I also don't usually watch The Amazing Race ( the Asia and International versions) mainly coz I don't like waiting a week to know what will happen next but entah ah...I kindda hooked on TARA Season 3. Watched every episode of it....blast it! Haha!

Anyway, last night is the season finale for the season 3 and truthfully, I'm kindda dissapointed and kindda relieve. Dissapointed that the Malaysian ladies didn't manage to win - they worked hard (physically and emotionally) and they should deserve it....so, there you go! But I was relieved that the Hongkies won!!! Not a big fan of them but it's better than the Phil team - Geoff and Tish. I have nothing against Tish but I dislike the bf, Geoff. He's so arrogant and over-confident. That's only my opinion anyway. Don't know how Tish could stand that guy....

Me and My So-Calld Stress Hormone

This week I'm kindda stressed up a bit. It's because of these KKC thingy! Yes! Our 2006 project haven't finish yet and as the secretary of this project, somehow I can feel the pressure already. With our group's leader going for his Haj next week and a long leave after that and with my group's co-leader went to futher her study last October, the pressures are all on me! YIKES!! I definitly don't like the feeling! Almost everyday for this week alone, I had to come home late.

Last Monday, after work, well, I started to play netball again in the Ministry. Had lots of exercises and catching up to do with 2-month break from netball. Pharmacy badminton tournament also kicked off last Monday night for 3 consecutive nights. I'm not playing. It's not that I don't know how to play, I do know how to play. It's just I don't know how to serve...haha! Honestly, I serve like I serve a tennis ball - bounce the shuttle up and hit..haha! Yea! I know I'm weird! But apart from that I DO know how to play. Anyway, I came home around 6.45PM from my netball, had my dinner, took a bath and then zoomed to RIPAS sport complex to watch and gave my supports to my bestie - she's playing. That Monday also, I had the lousiest mood at work. My partner was pulled to somewhere to relieve a colleague and I had to put up with......better I don't say lah. Later, will only raise an office politic but whatever it is, I'm not satisfied with what's happening last Monday. It's not that I don't like Monday! I DO like Monday, it's just that lousiest thing always happened on Mondays.

Tuesday, I had to drag myself to the ICC for the Hari Perkhidmatan Awam thingy. Don't ask me why I'm invited, I also have no idea and honestly, I don't fancy looking for parking in a FULL parking lot. Luckily, I'm not the one that's driving. Had to sit and listen for almost 2.5hours. Finally get back into the office around 11AM. 2nd night of the badmintion tournament and I didn't go. Texted my bestie that I couldn't come. Why? I don't know honestly but I was so damned tired. Not that I had any netball afterwork. Afterwork, I just straight went home, had my dinner, took my bath and went to sleep! SERIOUSLY! I went to bed around 8PM after I had my Isya' prayer. I was just plain tired, mentally, I guess. I was about to doze off when my bestie messaged me that she had lost.....again....at tonight's game and I 'postponded' my sleep for few minutes to consult and comfort her. She just couldn't accept another lost! Haha! Poor Dedy!

Wednesday, I had to stay back after work to attend a meeting. Mentally tired and physically hungry. I still stick to my no-lunch, so that afternoon, I finsihed up 2 apples and a half-container of biscuits. Haha! I'm not a big fan of biscuits but I managed to finish a half-container og it due to starvation. Came home around 6.30PM, had my dinner, took my shower, had my Maghrib and Isya' prayers then zoomed again to RIPAS sport complex. Tonight, the last night of the tournament. My bestie was half-way thru' the first set when I came and she lost...AGAIN!!! URRRGGGHH!!! Told her, "Baik tah aku jgn datang if you kept on losing" and she just smiled! I stayed there till 10.15PM, came home, switched on my PC and watched the latest Grey's Anatomy from a pendrive a friend downloaded for me. Only went to sleep around midnight.

Thursday, I came 'late' to work. My definition of 'late' here is after 7.15AM. Suprisingly, at work, it was not buzy for Thursday but somehow, I'm kindda irritated with 3 of my assistants. My regular assistant was being 'borrowed' to my other colleague hence I got a replacement for her plus with another 2 new assistants. What pissed me off was that all 3 of them doing the same thing while other duties were left unattented. I might be a chatty person but when it comes to work, I don't like to repeat myself. I only tell them what are their duties once and if you have any doubt, ask! It's not my habit to remind them what their duties are. As a professional, you should know what your duties are. If you don't know, memorized it, recorded it, jotted it down...whatever! I don't care! As long as you do your damn job!!! I was so in another lousy mood that afternoon and it doesn't help that, my group leader made my life complicated! I don't know. Maybe he is also stressed up with our project but that's not the reason to intefere me during from doing my on-going duties. Afterwork, I had to go to RIPAS coz our KKC group was having our briefing to the other staffs on the implementation of our project which we will start conducting this Monday. So, starting this Monday, with the group leader on a long leave, I had to stuggle with the other 2 members with our project. InsyaAllah, everything will just go smoothly.The funniest thing happened today was that everyone I met, in my so-called stressed mood said that I'm pretty today. Haha! My angry/stress hormone made me pretty know I had that 'glow'. Haha!! I should be angry more often...Hahaha!!

This morning, I woke up late, around 10AM, I think. I was suppose to go to RIPAS to take some injections but then I forgot! Tomorrow night, my bestie brings me to the closing dinner for the badminton tournament. It's actually only for the commities and the players only but then my bestie (who is also the commitie and the player) insisted me to accompany her, bah, layan saja...sama jua makan free! Haha! This Sunday, the ND/SCI/09 will be reunited again for Azmin's wedding which will be held in the ICC. From what I know, almost all of us are going, so yippieee, another reunion for us! Been a long time all of us didn't gather around. With Azmin getting married, so it will be left with me, Dedy, Syirah and Daneil who are not married. Dedy and Syirah both are attached, me and Daneil, well....let's just say that we are close. Let the time decide for us........ *wink*wink*

Me and the Dentist

I had a dental appintment this afternoon hence I am taking a half day off from work. It's been quiet a while I didn't make a trip to the dentist. I think my last trip would be in 2006! I was so obedient *haha* back then, so I stick to the 6-month visit to the dentist.

This time however, it's an unplanned visit. A colleague of mine is a good friend to this dentist and 1 day, the dentist came to the workplace and we had a chitchat and he's willing to give me an appointment to do reshaping. FYI - my front tooth is a bit chipped. It happened when I fell off from a bicycle long long long time ago *kira tera jua lah time kanak-kanak atu*. So, this dentist agreed to reshape my front teeth, making it more nicer *ehem*! I got an appointment that easy while others have to wait months to see this guy coz he's considered a specialist in this area.

Anyhow, me and dentist, there is always something wrong. What I meant by something wrong here is that shyness! I always get soooooo shy infront of the dentist. Any dentist! Male or female, both, I can't get rid of my shyness! Female dentist, I can tahan sikit la but when it comes to male dentist, fewwwwhhh...malu berabis.

The reason is that dentist does the dirty job. I mean, come on la, we all have to admit that our mouth is one of the dirtiest place in our body apart from the lower parts. Food came in all the time along with other things (whatever is the other things). So, when you open your mouth to the dentists, it's like they are looking right through your personalities. The cleaner your mouth, you are an okay person; the dirtier your mouth, you are the person who doesn't care about your personal hygine.

Alhamdulilah, my mouth and teeth are clean *puji diri sendiri*. I'm not saying that my mouth is the cleanest of all. It's just that I take very good care of my teeth and mouth hygine hence I don't have any problems. But, I have to admit, when a dentist see my mouth, I do get a very low self-confidence! I mean, they see what you can't even see.

Anyway, today, I was on my back with my mouth opened for 1 and a half hours! *YIKES* That's a record for me! That's the longest I ever sit with my mouth opened infront of the dentist!!! Fortunately, I decided not to go for braces coz that would take even longer....I don't think I can sit that long!!

Jalan-Jalan di Tasek

Last week, me, my parents and 2 of my younger brothers went out. We ate breakfast in one of the restaurants in Gadong and after we had our breakfast, my dad asked, "Bah, kan ke mana tah nie?". All we said is, "Jalan-jalan bah santai...namanya hujung minggu" hehe, so we went to Tasek Lama. My 2 younger brothers never been there (kesian ah!), so my dad brought all of us there...Managed to snap some pictures!

swingin'

faiz, mommy, iantie and muiz

mommy, daddy, muiz and iantie

daddy, faiz, iantie and mommy

mommy, faiz, daddy and iantie

faiz and iantie

B'day Presents

My besties gave me an early birthday presents (yup! more than 1) before I went on leave. And I have to say, I LOVEEEEEEEE her presents. It's a tote bag!!! How I LOVVEEE bagssss!!!!

One day we were window shopping in Yayasan when I spotted this gold/green tote bag from Divina. She asked me why I like tote (big/oversize) bag while most ladies like smaller bags? So I told her that I'm not like most ladies...haha! That's got her frustrated. But truthfully, I like a big bag where you can stuffed eveything in...haha! And as I said to her, "boleh bawa piknik" haha!

Then, just before I went on leave, she said that I can open the presie early except for 1 small present. She gave me 3 presents!!! I opened the big box and AAHHHHH!!! It's the bag that I second-like most!!! Haha! The bag that I saw in Divina, the bag that I like the most costs around $200+ so she said that she bought me the second that I like best....awwww....m so touched! I mean, I didn't expect her to buy me a bag coz she knows how many bags I own already (oooppppsss!!!)!!!! And eventhough this gold/green tote not as expensive as the white one, the one they put on display (ehem! ehem! - just incase someone out there wanna buy it for me..haha....wishful thinking!) but still, this tote is expensive. I would think twice to buy it especially after raya, where I'm kindda broke! hahaha!
Her 2nd present is a picture frame with a picture of us from the recent raya....My mum already placed it in our living room (for everyone to see) hehe!

Her 3rd present, it's the bestest birthday greeting anyone gave me so far. It comes in a CD-ROM and once I opened it, it shows our journey together as friends, right from the day I met/knew her till the present time. Pictures said thousands and thousands of words...Honestly, I cried during this part...

An ex-boyfriend of mine gave me the coolest gadget ever! I'm in heaven! Hehehe! He gave me the b.mobile zoom broadband and as I said before, I'm in heaven! It's an expensive present an ex-boyfriend can give and I told him but if he still insist to buy it for me, well, what the heck?! Accept sja tia...haha!

Thank you all for you presents, birthday wishes and all the belanja-belanja thingy!!! Love my family and the all of my friends.

It's not the age that counts
It's the thoughts!!

Tangan di Hulurkan, Maaf di Pohonkan

Been awhile I didn't update my blog and jot down what's been happening in my life and the world lately! Too buzy? Too lazy? Basically not in the mood to update anything! So many things had happened lately, with Ramadhan gone and we are still in the festive month. My Ramadhan went smoothly, Alhamdulillah and Syawal - tangan di hulurkan, maaf di pohonkan! I did my fair share of beraya and open houses. Met almost all of my old mates and some I didn't have the chance to meet yet! Overall, I lost some sleep during the first week of raya, who doesn't? Haha! I started back to work (like everyone else) after 4 days of raya-ing. 5 days of work, 3 weeks of leave and here I am, on my fourth day of work, having my half day off...haha!

Believe it or not, when I send in my leave application, my boss asked me why I want to take a 3-week leave as in 21 days? I told him (in my serious tone and facial expression), that I'm getting engaged! He, being lurus bendul (haha! kesian my boss), expressed his heartfelt congratulation and said, "Who is that very unlucky man?" EEESSSHHH!!! Haha! I'm not that bad!!! Haha! yeah, right! So, back to the story, since the day I send in my leave application till last week, everyone kept on asking me whether I'm getting engaged. My answer? Just wait and see! Haha! I like to tease people. I guess in a way it teaches them to be less busybody...haha!

Okay, here I will straight up the story - I'm not commited to any guy at the moment and I don't see the prospect of me getting engaged anytime soon! So...for those of you clever people outthere, I think I make it very clear!

Speaking of guy and commit, how you make yourself invisible and unattractive?? Haha! I'm not saying that I'm attractive but somehow, it's hard for me to 'escape' from the male species. 1 male 'gone' from my life, another 2 come! Ignore them, it's quiet hard coz 1 of them work at the same place as mine. I mean, it's bad for the work environment! And the other 1 is a friend of a friend. And honestly, it's bad for my health and conscience. This 1st guy, happens also to be a friend of another guy that I 'rejected' before while the 2nd guy, lets just say that this time it's his 2nd try of trying....haha! Which make it so hard....

'Rejected' is phrase I use when I give the guy a chance. I befriend with him, go out lunch/dinner with him, watch movie together and basically get to know each other. When I don't feel the connection, that's what I meant by 'rejected'. And bear in mind, 'rejected' doesn't mean that I don't befriend with them after that. Most of the males I dated and rejected, I always told them we are still friends but somehow, I think it hurts their egos that most of them just went silent after that. I don't mind if they don't want to be my friends anymore but I also don't want to make enemies. I mean, it would be very very weird if one day, we are to meet at a place or a function and sour faces everywhere...YIKES!!!

So, I was thinking, if I can't be unattractive (coz I'm sadang attractive..haha!), I decide to make myself invisible. How's that? And talking about invisible, how to be invisible? Does that mean less talking? Coz I'm very talkactive! Attend less social function? Done that! Mingle less with the up-and-coming faces of Brunei? Haha! Since when I mingle with them?? Haha! I reached my 27 years of living 2 weeks ago and maybe I should make it as my birthday resolution. That is - hurt less, eat more! Haha...that is the lousiest resolution ever, I guess! I mean, I couldn't help it if guys are attracted to me and I'm not! And it's not my fault that they couldn't be a grown up man for it and accept rejection! I didn't intend to hurt anyone coz I know how it feels to be hurt. I had been there so trust me, I don't want to do that to anyone - well, except for someone! I might look innocent (haha...banar kah tu?) but at this moment, I do HATE someone and man, don't I just wish that person harm. YUP! I'm using the word H-A-T-E which trust me, I rarely use! Most of the time, I use the word dislike. But this time, to this person, I do HATE that person. Luckily, that person is not here and not within my reach, Alhamdulillah. Coz if that person is within my reach, I cannot imagine what I would do to that person. What made me hate that person so much?? That is something that no one will dig out from me!! Until my revenge is replenish! Revenge....it's just a word but can cause a deadly effect. To this person, no tangan di hulurkan, no maaf di pohonkan. That person should be that one doing and saying all those things to ME!!!!

Don't you worry your sleep over it coz my revenge won't come anytime soon. InsyaAllah, if um
ur panjang, so does my revenge!

People say, to live happy, you must forgive and forget. Funny thing, I used to say that but this time, revenge is my next best thing. I will not stop until you suffer. I will not stop until you feel how I used to feel. Bear in mind, "used to feel" coz now, I don't feel anything, anymore. I closed up my feelings. That's the only thing that made me tough and stubborn! Please, don't fear me! I'm just a human being afterall. Fear Allah the AlMighty! That's the reason why I dare to take revenge coz I don't fear you. I only fear HIM!

To everyone else, don't be offended. Revenge is not for you but for that one particular person (I hope that person knows). So to everyone else,

Tangan di hulurkan
Maaf di pohonkan
Selamat Belated Hari Raya
Maaf Zahir dan Batin

Pictures

Atul and Nana

Aerobics for World Heart Day

Atul, iantie, Faiz and Trisya

Trisya and Nana

Atul and Trisya

Khatam Al-Quran and World's Heart Day

I was so buzy last week and last weekend. Work and meetings almost non-stop. My stock came hence I had to sacrifice my lunchtime to settle everything - entering, montitoring and balancing almost everything! Luckily I have a very efficient assistant. I didn't manage to play any netball last week nor I had the time to walk and hike. Work kept me so buzy.

Last Saturday, I had to ask for half day off coz that afternoon, brother Faiz was having his khatam Al-Quran and considering that both my parents couldn't attend; not to dissapoint my brother, I asked for off and being granted! Hehe! I came to work in the morning and I had to wait for a patient till 1230hr. By the time I came out from the office, I was caught in the school traffic jam - which is wayyyy too horrible! I only managed to arrive home around 1320hr. I had my lunch (couldn't help myself!), had my zuhur prayer and by the time I'm done, it's 1345 already and the arrival of guest was at 1400hr and yikes, I only had 15 minutes to get ready and looking outside, the weather was too cloudy.

5 minutes to 1400hr, I was ready getting out of the house and that's when it rained se-heavy heavynya! I mean, it really rained that heavy. My kain was halfway thru' wet on my way to the garage and by the time I arrived at the school, all the parking nearest to the entrance were fulled! I got no choice but to parked a bit further. Armed with my umbrella and luckily with my 3-inch Vincci shoe (hehe!), I lifted my kain a little bit high (which I don't care at that moment) and braved thru' the rain and made to the hall. The first 5 rows were fully occupied but I managed to squeeze myself in the third row (haha!). Luckily, bro Faiz was seated in the front row, so I can see him clearly. Function finished around 1615hr and the rain had stopped. Went home and I don't remember what time I fell asleep, but I know it's early. Haha! So tired! No Saturday night fever for me!

Next morning, woke up around 0400hr to switch on the water heater (how we rely on electricity nowdays..hmmm), fully awake around 0500hr, had my shower and subuh prayer, then get myself ready for the World's Heart Day walkathon that were held in JPCC Ampitheater. My bestie fetched me around 0635hr and by the time we arrived there, people were starting to come too. Warmup session started as soon as the GoH arrived and it started with aerobics. We walked around 2.5KM around the Jerudong Park area and one point, I left my bestie alone and started to cut the VIPs..hehe! Coouldn't stand with walking only, I started to jog. Haha! With this and that, me and my bestie went home and after taking a bit of rest, fetched my brothers from their tuition classes, had my shower, I went to sleep at 1200hr!! Haha! Yup! Sleep till 1645hr. I slept late last night, watched the Olympic closing ceremony and a little bit of footie match between Wigan and Chelsea. Not a big fan of both team but I was so damned bored that last-last, I switched off the TV, went to my little library and reread a book. Managed to fell asleep around 0000hr.

The Ups and Downs of Life...

No one says that life is always beautiful, perfect and at peace. No! That would be a lie. And behind every faces that you see, there are some stories and memories that better left undisturbed. For me, I think I'm suffering the 'down period' of my life ever....I mean so far. Can you imagine, I'm coming 27 years old and I'm facing the worst problem ever! Don't say that I'm having a middle age crisis...haha! Unless, my age is not that long. So, if I'm having a middle age crisis, does that mean, I won't be around to reach 50 years old? Nauzubillah....it's all in Allah's hand.

I don't know what's happening to me. It all started end of last month and still continue. I'm moody most of the time and to be honest, I'm being a lousy friend for this period....and yeah, make that lousy colleague too. I like to be alone most of the time nowdays but I'm still good with my family and brothers. My colleagues are all surprised to see me quiet (I'm quiet talkactive most of the time).

My problems? I know what my problems are but it's a nature of me to bottle everything up and just ignore 'it' until it cannot be ingnore anymore! But of course, this time, it's different from the other problems and no matter how much I want to ignore it, I just can't. Entah lah but somehow I'm just the type of person who couldn't trust someone that much. I'm soooo scared of being hurt. I tried to talk to a starnger about this, but somehow, I stopped in the middle of discussion. There are times when I couldn't sleep and have to force myself to sleep just from thinking about this problems and when I did manage to get some sleep, I ALWAYS woke up in the middle of the night. I should wake up and do Sembahyang Tahajjud instead of falling back to sleep. My only solution to my problems is to sembahyang and pray very hard to Allah SWT. That's the only peace I seek! And InsyaAllah, everything will just go back to normal.

They said air mata wanita selalu murah (easy to flow) but mine, my tears are leaking! Most of the times, I would cry for no apparent reason and woke up with a pair of fluffy eyes. Everytime someone asked why my eyes had dark circles, my only answer is - heavy reading!

Back Dated Enteries

Been quiet a while I didn't update my blog so here it is, as I remembered it.

Yesterday - Work is as usual, almost buzy non-stop. Considering that my stock is coming today (tuesday), I had to update all the necessary bincards so that everthing will be balanced when my stock arrived. Hence, I work all through during lunchtime and still, I can't finish my paperworks. URGGHHH! It shows how many I left unattend for the last few days. Hmmm...Went home a bit late coz had to stay back for a brief meeting (lagi menyesakkan kepala!)

Sunday, 17th August - Woke up a bit late coz I stayed all night reading and finishing, Sandaran Hati by Aini Marisha (if I'm not mistaken). It is a nice book, I have to say. Anyway, had a cup of tea and few bars of chocolate for brunch, fetched my brothers from their tuition class then we went to Gadong for lunch. It was jammed as usual for a weeked so I went straight for the basement parking. No use to waste time in looking for a parking. Funny thing, as we arrived in the food court, looking at all those foods, made me full and I ended up didn't eat anything. My dad had a headache hence I'm driving. We went to Muara and headed for Serasa beach. Saja...jalan-jalan. Late in the afternoon, my aunt and grandma stopped by at our home and stayed there till late.

Saturday, 16th August - Hmmm...went to work. Went for netball after work. This time we played against the army's wives from Muara Camp and a team from Kg Burung Pingai. They are good. Me? Pancit dah! Few weeks dah didn't go for my hike and walk. Barat rasanya bah...

Friday, 15th August - Morning, I woke up early coz I need to accompanied my mum to run some errands. Managed to buy 3 new novels from Alaf 21. In a rush to fetch my brothers from their tuition class. Afternoon, went out again with my mum and brothers (dad went to KB for MOHA's function). Survey all those electrical shops coz mum wanted to buy a microwave oven. Managed to buy 1 with a bargain (mum punya kerja) and mum then lanja us with donuts...nyum nyum....hmmm..macammana kan control nie??!!!

In An Analytical Mood - 6th August Entry

I don't know what went wrong with me today but everything seemed to be 'out of place'. My car gave me a problem early this morning. One of my tyres puncture on my way to send my brothers to school. I had to drive slow home. Luckily my home is just few meters from the school. Dad let me drive his car while he and my mum went with one car. I had a meeting this afternoon afterwork, so Dad had to bring my tyre to the tyre shop and fix whatever the problem is.

So, I came 'late' for work. I'm a very predictable person. I always come to work around 7-7.10am but today, I came around 7.25am (duh!) and once I entered the door, my super-duper colleague said,"Nah....panjang umurmu. Pikir tah kau off". EErrrKK! Dapat off kah? Haha! But I didn't say it out loud coz I was so buzy saying that it's only 7.25AM! And office hour will only start in 20 minutes time!

This morning, I don't know what came into me! Well, for 1 thing, I'm NOT always a perfectionist - sometimes I am but MOST of the time, I'm not! But today, I choose to be a perfectionist and what happened? I criticized most of my assistants' duty/work. They are 3 assistants in my watch at the moment and so far as I am concern, I'm happy that they do their job and know what they duties are. But today...jeng jeng jeng! Hahaha! Everything seems so wrong in my eyes! One assistant forget to count and jot down all the details that I want that I end up asking her to re-count, jot down all the details and place all the items back on the shelves...Jahat ah aku ah but then hey! It's her fault not doing her job correctly. Being young and pregnant doesn't give you the excuse for not doing your job right. Another male assistant forgot to enter some items in the log book....HUMPH! apa lagi....another lecture la kedengaran. My other 2 colleagues didn't say anything, just keep quiet. They know when to shut their mouths..hehe!

I managed to finish my paperwork by lunchtime but I'm too tired to go out so I just sat infront of the laptop and check my mails! My bestie send me 2 forwarded emails the pictures of Sheikh Muzhaffar during his visit to Brunei. I don't know! If you look very throughly, he is NOT THAT handsome. Don't get me wrong! He is GOOD-LOOKING and handsome too BUT NOT THAT handsome, if you get what I mean. The thing about him is that he got this vibe about him or as we Malay people called it 'aura'. There is something about him that made you attracted, admired and easily fell in love to and that's the good quality. Have you ever meet that type of person? The one that is NOT handsome or beautiful but has this 'vibe' about him/her? Hmmm....

Anyway, afternoon, my mood is a bit okay la. I talked less hence aku marah pun less. Stayed in the office till 6 something and it was so jammed from Kiulap to the roundabout. I looked at the watch, it's 6.20PM!!! and it's jammed??! Long ques on all the 3 lanes. As I approached the roundabout, laaaaaaa...an accident between a Toyota Vios and Suzuki Ignis. It's a common thing happened in the roundabout. No casualties as far as I can see. Just a minor accident. Then from Beribi to Jangsak to Kilanas, I was so pissed off with this Malaysian registered car. Don't get me wrong. I have no discrimination between nationalities. You know what happened? This car is infront of me all the way from Beribi to Kilanas. He's quiet slow and I'm in a bit hurry to go home. What pissed me off, at one time or another he signaled as in to move to other lane or masuk simpang (as I assumed la) but always nda jadi. It happened like 5 times and last-last, I overtook and looked at him. Guess what? There is a child, around 2 years old sitting on his lap!!!! What? Is he crazy or what? I mean, he is jeopridizing his kid's life by allowing his kid to sit on his lap! What happened if something happened....URGH! Don't want to think about it!

At the moment, I'm downloading games. Hehe! Games lagi! What else? We had a netball practise today but I didn't go coz I had a meeting. Tomorrow, we didn't have any practise what-so-ever so I'm thinking to go for a walk and hike coz Saturday, I will have a zikir practise..

'Romantic Tuesday Morning' and macam-macam...

Been quiet a while I didn't update my blog and what's happening. Been so buzy lately. I still have the time to do things I suppose to be doing but somehow nowdays all my free time, it's either I lazying around in my bed reading a book or sitting till my butt aches infront of the laptop/desktop playing games! I'm addicted playing games nowdays even my bestie was suprised. I mean, in all these years that she had known me (almost 11 years), she couldn't remember when I ever sat down for hours infront of the pc to play games! The only I ever sit infront the computer for hours are either when I'm logged to the net or when I'm trying to do any last minutes assignments/reports. Haha! Typical!

Anyway, now I got the time to update my blog and what's happening lately. I'm in Tutong today and as I drive, I was listening to this one deejay who said that it's a beautiful, 'romantic tuesday morning' and I couldn't help but to look throughly up to the sky and yes, it is indeed a beautiful Tuesday. Romantic? Hmmm..not sure about that coz I didn't see any sunrise and all but it sure is a beautiful, calm Tuesday. I enjoyed my long drive to this remote area.

Why yesterday not as calm as today? No! It's not because it's Monday. I don't believe in Monday blues. In my opinion, everyday is the same. It's just your attitude toward the day itself that counts. For me, everyday always start beautiful and I'm always grateful for the new day I woke up to. Why? 'Coz I'm still breathing to enjoy the day. So, I like to treat everyday as the same. But yesterday, it was super buzy at work. I don't have the time for my break, only break for the loo. As I started to skip my lunch, I didn't go anywhere during lunchhour. Just stayed in the office and tackled all the paperworks that need to be done....and logged into the net for a while to check my emails and well, surf a bit (couldn't help myself)...hehe!

By afternoon, it was quiet relaxing la. I managed to do some important calls and continued my pending paperworks. Honestly, I don't know where I got the energy but yesterday, afterwork, I changed my work attire into sports attire and played netball in the Ministry! Haha! 2 weeks rest from playing netball, all of us kindda sucks yesterday. It was fun but we just couldn't stop laughing for most of the games. Such a fun game!

Last Saturday, for the first time in my life (as far as I can remember la), I made a guy blushed! SERIOUSLY! In my line of work, eye contact is important. Truthfully, before I started this job, I was a shy lady...HONESTLY! I don't dare to stare at people's faces, apatah lagi eye contact! I managed to avoid any 'uncomfortable' eye contacts before I started working. Even my tutors always asked me so many times whether I understand a certain topic before I looked in their eyes and said 'Yes'. Anyway, back to this guy. In my opinion, he is considered a good-looking guy, fair complexion and around late 20's - early 30's. He approached me and he's collecting medications on behalf of his 79 years old grandma. Before I got the chance to check/dispense/explain all his grandma's medications, he started to speak and ask me questions, of coz la concerning his grandma's medications. He asked me questions, I answered and explained. At first I didn't noticed him blushing but as he kept on asking questions and I continued on explaining with my eyes fixed on his, I noticed that one time or another, his eyes were diverted to somewhere before it returned to my face. Well, at first I thought he is just shy or feeling uncomfortable that I looked directly at him so, I tried to divert my eyes too, once in a while. About 5 -10 minutes explaining to him, he went off with a thank you and my colleague said, "Just because he's handsome, you took your time ah" in a teasing tone. Well, I told him that I'm answering to all his questions and I can't just get rid of him like that. And my colleague said, "What did you say to him that he blushes?". And I was like, "What? He blushes? I didn't notice that! He's not furious kah?" Haha! I hope that guy didn't come across my blog and read this!

That Saturday afternoon,afterwork, I was planning to go walking and hiking but I had to cancelled coz I need to attend a meeting. Oh! Guess what? I met an old old classmate while I was walking and hiking around Tasek last last week. I met Ezra. We were in Form 4 and Form 5 together and this is the first time I met him after we finished high school. He hasn't change much. He was taking a break and sat on a bench when I passed by. He got an iPOD stuck to his ear and I was thinking, if I say Hi will he hear me. So I tried my luck and said, "Hai Ezra" and suprisingly, he looked up and smiled. We walked together and just catch up a bit la before we went our own way - me, going for my 2nd round while him, going home.

What else I'm missing? Hmmm....Last Monday, last week, I was having my off day after working during the weekend so me and my 2 brothers went to watch a movie - I'm Not Single. Malaysian, malay movie. Nice! Romantic but funny! And I think this is the 2nd movie Farid Kamil and Awal Ashari are in together. First would be the Apa Kata Hati? (also a nice movie) and now this, I'm Not Single. Don't get me wrong but I wonder what happened to all the male/female actors/actresses that were famous in the late 90's. Azhar Sulaiman, Ahmad Idham and Pierre Andre (yang I remember la) are now become directors or something - which is good. But what happened to the rest of the actors/actresses. Rarely we hear or watch any news on them.Speaking of Pierre Andre, I love his movie 9 September. It's so heart wrenching movie!

Oh yea, Majlis Ilmu come and go. I went to the Majlis Ilmu TWICE!!! just to meet Datuk Sheikh Muzhaffar - the first Malaysian angkasawan. But bukan rezeki kali, I didn't manage to meet or see him! URRRGGGGGHHHH!!! I'm so FRUSTRATED! I even asked my RBA engineer friend whether he knows when Shk Muzhaffar due to go back to Malaysia but he also couldn't get any info. I managed to buy his book 'Reaching for the Stars'; written by his late brother, Ajil. I read and finished it within an hour and ended up with fluffy eyes. It's so touching! Read it then you will know what I meant!

Anyway, it's August and fasting month will start in less than a month's time. My preparation? Hmmm....dunno yet! I think we will not be celebrating raya as merry as before coz 2 of my brothers are having their big exam this October, hence less beraya....

Chiow!

Exercise and Eat!

How many of you guys out there do this? You exercise then you went home or somewhere and eat?! Honestly, m one of them...whahaha! Yup! I exercise, then I went home or sometimes to the restaurants wit a colleague and eat and in the end, I didn't lose any fats! HummmpppHH!

But I think I'm losing some weight...due to stress? work overload? activities? Dunno..maybe. Well, for 1 thing, I skipped my lunch so, it's appropriate for me to eat dinner right, which is after the exercise. I'm sure it's just not me who did like that. If you are honest with yourself, I bet 90% of us will eat after we exercise. I know a colleague of mine who trying very hard to lose weight by doing aerobics. Too bad that the aerobics center is just above a restaurant/cafe and soon she finished her session, she will eat! Typical Bruneian? Hmmmm..don't think so!

Last weekend, I was watching the TV - Kimora: Life on the Fab Lane. If I'm not mistaken, she used to be a model before she becomes a designer. Anyway, Chris (her personal assistant) dragged her up a hill for an exercise. She didn't make it to the top at the first try but she did after the second and soon after that she said, "I'm hungry. Let's go and eat". I couldn't help but to giggle. I mean, it proves that it's not just US that eat after exercise.

I went to Tasek yesterday. Suprisingly, it's not that many people but the parking was quiet full. I had to park further. But nvm, it's good for warming up..hehe! With my Sony Ericsson Walkman stuck into my ears, I did 2 rounds of the Tasek. But I didn't go further into the jungle. Well, I was alone and don't fancy getting lost. But it was a good walk/hike yesterday. The weather nda jua panas, nda jua kan hujan although it eventually raining on my way down...but it was fun! I managed to sweat...hahaha!